>_< In Retrospect, an Epiphany

I get it. The oversharing stuff. I think maybe I was writing about it and thinking about it negatively because of the mindset I was in. There are still some truths to my words though, else why would I say them? But they were delivered in a somewhat distasteful way and in the name of neutrality I took some time to think about what I've said and reflect.

Really the only thing that came to mind to justify that whole rant is that somewhere deep inside, I think I want to be that way also, but the effort and stigma that goes along with it kind of blocks me from doing so. I bet it'd be nice to share something about your life and see all the people in it (and some that aren't) approve of whatevers going on. To showcase how great my life is and have others think that way as well. Isn't our generation supposed to thrive on likes and follows? Sounds like a good time.

But I run the risk of also having people think that, "oh this guy is full of himself." etc etc. Who wants that kind of looming energy in their lives?

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I think I care about what people think of me too much. I think I've always been like that, well at least into my early teens. Makes me miss the days when I walked into kindergarten and no one really cared about what you wore, what you looked like, how you talked. This is a deeper dive into a subject I don't really want to talk about. But the whole oversharing stems from the fact that it must be nice knowing (or thinking that knowing) that the people that you project your life to know that you've got just as good of a life as they do, and for some, better. So like I said at the beginning of this post, I get it.

That being said: I got a promotion at my job. I didn't think I'd get it because I received a raise at the beginning of the year. It's nice. Please, everyone, approve of me and my life.

Please.