>_< 27 Questions To Find Your Passion (Part 3)

So it's good that this is the last part because I honestly wasn't getting much out of it, even if the last few questions in the previous part were getting a little juicy. Again, I haven't seen the last set of questions, but hopefully before the end of it all something inside me is gonna click and I'll find my passion, quit my job, and just go do it....

HAHAHA sike. I'm scared.

19) If you were able to be a member of the audience at your own funeral (in 100 years or so) what would you want to hear people say?
OH DAMN. My energy right now - out the fucking door. I'm gonna make a cup of tea before I answer this question.

So I'm dead, huh? Well. that stinks. This questions is really interesting to me as it opens up a whole narrative about self-reflection. There's a lot of things that I imagine people at my funeral would say about me, and whether or not that differs from my own thoughts... well - let's talk it out.

Let's start with my friends. I would hope they all say the same thing. Something along the lines of how much of an asshole I was, but also how much fun I was to be around with some "he had a really bad but really great sense of humor." Maybe something about volleyball and how much I loved it and how great of a player I was. Honestly I'd be surprised if anything about my intelligence came up. I never really saw my self as like a genius in my field but I guess it may come off that way at least to some people that I was arrogant about being a chemist and having a chemistry degree. Maybe I'm just too proud.

For those who are closer to me I'd pretty much expect a generic eulogy. A shared memory tied with some neat words that make it seem like they actually care. Don't read that the wrong way - I KNOW that people care about me and everything they say would be genuine and heartfelt, but there's just so much genuinely nice things to say about a person you care about at their funeral before it becomes too... scripted. It's sad, really because I can imagine it now...

"What can I say about Roy? He was a grandfather, father, brother, uncle, athlete, musician, and most importantly a great and kind soul... he made everyone around him laugh..."

While everyone sips on their pumpkin spice tears

Basic stuff. What would I want people to say? Hmm...

"So Roy's dead. FINALLY *pause for laughter*. He was a really great guy wasn't he, when he wasn't pretending to not be racist or to not be a pedophile? I really miss they way he could make a group feel uncomfortable by forcing a laugh in non-laughable situations. blah blah volleyball blah blahh great singer blah blah..."

I was really going to commit to writing my own euology. Then I got sad. Let's move on.

20) What do you want to be remembered for - what dent do you want to have put in the world?
Oh, great. More depressing questions. See above I guess. I've already come to the realization that I'm not here to change the world. Just live it like the billions of us try to do every day. My range of influence isn't SO big - so I'm not worried about leaving a legacy or anything like that. The only dent that I want to put in this world is to be remembered by those in a non-negative way. The best scenario would be "Remember that Roy kid?" "Yea, he was an ass." *cue laughter. The laughter there is important. Don't call me an ass then not laugh like you meant it. I WILL haunt you.

21) What do your friends always tell you you'd be good at, that you should do for a living (i.e. "he'd make a great...)? If you don't remember, then go ask five of them.
Oh so now this is some kind of ice breaking exercise? I gotta talk to people? Heck no. As far as I remember, I don't think anyone has ever said once to me that I would make a good anything. I was always kind of good and picking new things up and I never excelled at anything good enough for people to say I should be doing that for the rest of my life. There have been casual conversations, I guess, where the thought of singing was a thing but no one ever convinced me hard enough. It was more like, "oh you're good at that, wouldn't it be cool if you did that for a living?" When I was younger my friends would entertain the fact that I'd be a good basketball player. HAH.

Oh wait, I just remembered. Acting. That was a thing people thought I'd be good at and people think I'm good at. The kind of career is really hard to pursue though.

22) What are you naturally curious about?
How people do things. Especially athletes. I love watching professionals or really good players play a game that I am interested in. I naturally just study them and end up copying their moves. Serving in tennis? Roddick. My jump serve for volleyball? Lawson. I find it interesting how I can just say "I wanna do that" take a quick video in my head of them doing that and just go do it. Obviously not perfect, but effective enough to improve my game.

Another thing I'm curious about is the world, man. *takes a hit from joint* It's the main reason why I study chemistry. I wanted to study how the world works and why it does. I get that there's physics for all that natural stuff, but knowing why leaves change color and why our sky is blue and how our gas burns in our car gives you a deeper, better appreciation for it. #deep

23) If you had a free hour to surf the internet, what would you explore?
Porn.

24) Think back when you were 5 or 10 years old. What did you want to be when you grew up? Anything goes. What skills and metaphors do these represent (i.e. pilot may be a symbol for freedom)?
When I was younger, and I think I may have written this on a previous entry, but I would tell everyone that I would be a neurosurgeon. Goddamn what a dream that was. Then I dabbled (and still do dabble) in thinking about being a game designer for Nintendo. Also a good dream. Neurosurgery is no joke, this might have been a metaphor of how badly I wanted to tell everyone I was smart/ Game designer was just a metaphor of showing everyone I was normal ass kid.

25) If you could write a book to help the world, that is guaranteed to be a best seller, what would the title be? What's it about?
"How not to be a dick" or "Don't take yourself (and the world) seriously". Like, really people in this world (at least the people that have the most influence - or the biggest voice) need to chill out. People are always looking to make noise about being offended about the stupidest thing. Don't take the world too seriously. I feel like because all the media outlets that tweak their news and headlines to gain views are introducing a wrong mindset to those who haven't put a finger on how the world works yet. I didn't use to think it would matter if a black guy approached me at night, now I do. Thanks, Obama.

26) What careers do you find yourself dreaming of? What jobs do others have that you wish you were yours?
See above.Game designer. For the jobs I wish that were mine? Any that pays a hefty sum of money that requires little to no work at all. Nothing physically taxing. When I see people just sitting at their desk, writing blogs about things that aren't important - oh. Nah i'm good. This job is good.

27) What 3-5 dream jobs or businesses can you imagine would firmly embody your core beliefs about the world? Sky's the limit.
What the hell with this question. I wanna get paid to tell people they're overreacting. I wanna be able to have direct lines to any media coverage and tell them to calm the fuck down. A froyo joint. Goddamn they must make a shit ton of money.

So that's it. Did I find my passion? Seems like volleyball, video games, and being a dick while also teaching people how to not be a dick are my passion. Thanks, random survey.

AN ADDENDUM: I found a link that gives daily writing prompts. I'll probably start doing those once in a while too.

ta ta kids